Strange as it may seem, i have no words to describe it, it comes and goes, the highs the lows and i never can define it. Its all about you know what but i struggle with its scope, lost, it's there, then its gone i feel like a dope.

Then like i guessed the constant pest its back and feelings darken, chase the light, give in again tonight, there is no use trying to fight it, wake first light, its nice and bright, my senses start to sharpen.

Will it die when i do, can it sustain without me, not sure about any of this thinking, it drives me on, keeps me strong do you think thats why i'm drinking.